That's too bad, and condescending that "it's all in the mind". Reminds me of this lunatic (maybe he has something about O2 deprivation); we've seen this:
http://www.spiritsite.com/writing/johsar/
You are a seasoned NP who could have easily gotten into medical school(sorry to reveal this). This "all surgeons are butchers" must be hard to take - esp. since you were a surgical nurse too.
Hoping for a long-term remission; really, maybe some adhesions broke off a/some nerves.
ans