decisions I made o
And I've made some pretty lousy decisions and I don't think the meds helped one bit but they have been survival. At the level of pain I had, if I hadn't had meds, I would have gone off the GG bridge. Many of us are probably on antidepressants, which I know I'll never get off of. That's ok. It's all the anxiety. I don't feel I can "trust" my back. It makes me not want to go out because it's not safe out there. I've got a therapist and a MD working with me for the anxiety, yadayada but I never realized how much emotional baggage goes with this.
As usual, I try to explain it to people. They say that's interesting....which I guess intellectually it is. I need to remember that saying...the only thing we have to fear is fear itself. Home equals safety.
Thanks
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Chemically sensitive disc/Annular tears, DDD, mild bulging, facet arthritus
Dancing accident in 96. tried PT, acupuncture, pilates, pain mgmt. nothing worked. Epidurals, facet blocks, caudal blocks, discogram. Opiates for ten years, oral prednisone, toradol inj. & more.
Two level spinal fusion with BMS, cages, hardware. due to bone density problems from chemotherapy, they had to go in front and back. Surgery Nov. 6, 2010. So far no regrets.
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