Jarrod,
Have you not read one word we all wrote. There may be relief out there for you but laying in bed and rotting will not get you there. I so understand how you feel, I really do. I'm not just saying that. We all understand and we'll all telling you - get on anti-depressants- NOW, not tomorrow, not next week, NOW.
Go see a pain managment specialist and get your pain under control.
Once you're mentally able to make a plan and when your pain in under control, then we can address what you might want to do on a permanant basis but addressing any of this now when you're not able or willing to grasp the entire picture is non productive.
ANTI-DEPRESSANTS - NOW
A friend felt much as you do. I hounded her until she payed attention. Today, she is 75-100% pain free, depending on the day. She's climbing mountains for peats sake (pun intended). Anti-depressants saved her life which is now so worth living. She is quite happy with her life.
Don't think about this, just do it.
Dale
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3 level Prodisc adr S1-L3, Oct 12, 2005
Dr. B in Bogen, Germany
Severe nerve damage in left leg, still working on it
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