[dshobbies]

Roblin,

No one cares about your 'airing your dirty laundry'. This is the hand you were dealt and you're dealing with it as best you can. We all have suffered, some still, some not. Your circumstances are unfortunate (to put it mildly) and we are all here for more than one reason. First and foremost, we support each other. We educate each other. We learn from other's successes and failures. We laugh with you and cry with you. We try to pull you up when you're too far down as now seems to understandibly be your case.

We are all sorry you did not find the relief you hoped for with your surgeries. The double edged sword of pain meds has many of us concerned but is often the necessary part of two evils. The pain associated with our backs is often unbearable and we do what we have to.

So to get through the day, my advise to you is do what you have to. Try what your instincts tell you to try. If there is a trial period for a scs, do it. You might want to get a second opinion from a pm or ask your two doctors for a three way phone consultation.

You want to be pain free and to get your life back. One way or another, this may very well be in your future. Hope is still on your side so if nothing else, hang onto that.

I do wish you all that you wish for yourself, Dale