Emotional issues (ptss) from years of back stuff

[dridobits]

And I've made some pretty lousy decisions and I don't think the meds helped one bit but they have been survival. At the level of pain I had, if I hadn't had meds, I would have gone off the GG bridge. Many of us are probably on antidepressants, which I know I'll never get off of. That's ok. It's all the anxiety. I don't feel I can "trust" my back. It makes me not want to go out because it's not safe out there. I've got a therapist and a MD working with me for the anxiety, yadayada but I never realized how much emotional baggage goes with this.

As usual, I try to explain it to people. They say that's interesting....which I guess intellectually it is. I need to remember that saying...the only thing we have to fear is fear itself. Home equals safety.

Thanks