The Darkness

[KL Aguilar]

I had spinal surgery which I'm struggling to recover from--my biceps and deltoids don't work, meaning I can't lift my arms. I am improving very slowly little by little.

However, the reason I am replying to your thread is that for the last few years, I've been afraid of almost anything negative that could happen to me or my family. Before I was a very optimistic person who could always see the light at the end of the tunnel, who often MADE the light appear. Now, one of my kids will comment that things are going badly at work, and I see him/her losing his job, not being able to find another one, asking me for money, etc. This is just an example, and not all my worries are about money. My mind just seems to see the potholes in life.

I used to feel invincible. Now I feel that bad things are inevitable.