Thanks for just BEING here at times

[Eddie G]

Sorry to hear you feel like me. I see you keep the same hours as me also. At least for me I can watch all the overseas rugby games at that hour. My wife tries to encourage me. She says "You walked alot this week" or "You are moving around good this week" but alot of times I dont want to hear it because I feel like the cats ass. I has hoped my trip to Johns Hopkins in Baltimore would bring better news but I think all they are offering is more injections & surgeries. It turns out that the Johns Hopkins doctor, Dr. Kabiash was trained my my surgeon, the wonderful Dr. Goldstein, so I really had it right the first time. They want an MRI of my SI joint so I am currently jumping thought the fire hoops of approvals for WC. I think they want to rule out arthritis and ankylosing spondylitis because I feel the same as you EVERY morning. I also have Plantar Fasciatis so my feet hurt real bad too. Also Carpal Tunnel. So I know how it is. I really need to use the group more too. It's a great place to bounce things off. Since I have been getting more rounder, I probably bounce higher too. I weighed in at 239 this week. JEEZE!!!
Feel better, thats an order!

[melodyl]

Dear Ali,

I hope today is a better day for you. Everyone here knows how hard it is to get out of bed sometimes. Pain and pain meds can both be depressing. Please talk to your doctor about your symptoms.....both physical and emotional. Going to the dr. might be the last thing you feel like getting out of bed for....but you owe it to yourself! No doubt things seem overwhelming with your husband so far away. Keep posting here....even if we can't be in the same room listening to you....we do care about how you feel and will offer what support we can. Before my surgeries, there were lots of days I didn't get out of bed. During the narcotic taper I am currently trying to finish, there have been more days in bed or on the couch. We have to keep hoping that there are good days in our futures. Those good days will seem even better after going through these tough times. Regarding medical records.....one tip I've learned is that if I request my medical records from the hospital or clinic where I have been treated, I have to pay for them. However....if my primary care physician requests that the records be sent to his office, there is not a charge. Good for you for posting the way you feel! I hope you find comfort and support with the responses you are getting.

Melody

[Jakea222]

I feel the same way brothers and sisters. Unless you have the pain - no one can imagine unless you are a back patient. The docs the insurance the employers and fellow employees - and everthing else that slams your brain and the pain and the pills etc. WE all have been support for one another - you guys have been great for me too - I hope to help someone as my saga continues...g

[dridobits]

Ali, I'm new here and everything you said rings a bell. I thought I was the only one where a good day was getting dressed and out of bed.

Since my accident my depression (which I had already) worsened. I can't imagine not having my antidepressants. Also to those out there who may be suffering from depression, don't ever give up. I am lucky to have found a doctor who was willing to try different things with me as I had a depression that was resistant to medication. The medication Lamictal saved my life when I wasn't getting enough response from my antidepressant. Medication resistant depression is now called by many "type two bi-polar" I believe. It has nothing to do with the bipolar condition most of us know. It is a new classification where the medication that works on bi-polar also works on depression. It saved my life.

I'm here for you. Having an invisible disability is difficult. People often have no idea. I'm so glad I'm finally here.

[dshobbies]

Hello dridobits,

Don't know your circumstances but just wanted to welcome you to the forum. Depression is the hidden part of our disease and too many are reluctant to both admit to it or take the necessary medication but it can make all the difference. I'm glad you shared. Please tell us what brought you here.

Dale

[steve55]

Dridobits, wow, I too have the same diagnosis. I have bi polar 2 because I don't really respond to antidepressants and I don't really have noticeable manic episodes. I have severe anxious clinical depressions every 4-6 years. The only medications that work on me and relax me are anti convulsants. So, my doctor says I'm bi polar 2 cause the meds that fix me are the meds that work on bi polar.

[phylly]

Steve,
May I ask you to share which anti convulsants you use for yout depression? Please PM me if this is too personal for you. Thank you so much.
phylly

[Nairek]

Ali,

I was just stopping by to see how you are doing.

Karin